xsenang nak belaja sambil berkeluarga

Assalamualaikum, me saja nak share how i feel towards studying as a part time student. selama ni me tgh study kat upm tok ambik b.a dan alhamdullilah selesai last week, terasa sayu jer hati dlm kelas terakhir, me xtau ah dpt lagi ke rasa jd student kat upm lepas ni semua tu ketentuan Allah swt. apa2 pon me bersyukur selama 3thn setengah dr me keje dlm tv production until now, im done doing my B.A. hurm masa me dlm production me kene stop study selama setahun, sbb buat sitcome agensi melor with kak nita then me sambung balik, lepas kak nita kita org buat cerita makan2 n dlm pada masa yg sama me tgh buat documentary abt nice places in malaysia, tajuk dia pakej plak, jenuh me masa tu sbb sem 1 2 n 3 me sebuk buat doku, masa tu me dah decide, me kene benti keje cr keje mudah2 jd admin, dok dlm opis jer, ckp bnyk2 kali last2 termakbul , dpt ah me keje kat uia ni then alhamdullilah kat uia me dpt lah belaja. tp me ingat lagi masa bos me kat fkn ckp, susah ambik ba english ni kujan, wife saya yg teror eng pon quit, dia mcm xencourage me sambung ambik eng. tp alhamdullilah me berjaya menamatkan pengajian wpun xlah flying colour tp alhamdullilah me habis kali ni, kakak me kat fkn pon asyik tnya bila me nak abis belaja hurm sbr je ah dengan semua org sbb most of them pk me xabis belaja sbb me bnyk kali quit belajar, me quit ada sebab2nya tapi kali ni me xquit

masa kat uia plak me ada jodoh with al qani even me xpenah kenal dia sebelum ni n even me tgh dok bercinta with some one else, mak kenalkan kami, dia dtg merisik, then tup tap dia nak menikahi me alhamdullilah merisik cum bertunang selama sebulan setengah jer me pon menikahi al qani ihiks, xsusah ngan qani tp rasa buang masa gie bercinta ngan mcm2 org huhuhu xsesuai betol! jgn contohi me bab tu! lepas kawin, me mengandung haaaa masa tu dah sem 5 me ada lagi 5 lagi sem, huhuhu, me masa stress tahap gaban, gaban pon kalah, me penat sgt asyik nagis jer, qani pulak pindah keje di kpg, lagi lah stress, dok kat kl with mak nasib mak ada alhamdullilah, me mengandung me asyik nagis sbb letih kene gie kelas dan stress with assigment,bukan sennagn nak drive dr opis ke upm, jalan mrr2 mmg jam thp gaban,sbr je ah waktu tu, setiap kali gie kelas setiap kali jam setiap kali tu ah me nagis (agaknya pasal tu ubaid suka nagis huhuhu sbb masa mengandung dia me nagis selalu) then masa me pantang me kene gie kelas sbb final exam lah pulaks, masa menyusu ubaid me baca buku sampai lah ubaid dah leh jalan me masih ke kelas, masa pntg rasa stress tuhan je tahu! sem berapa tah me xingat, umah me banjir, masa tu nak final exam gak nota me basah, :( me rasa xnak dah gie exam tapi alhamdullilah me keringkan notes n dpt lah bc mana yg daya jer, n lulus xda lah cemerlang tp lulus, masa tu kan me nagis sbb masa tu mengandung n umah banjir xpenah2 banjir selama 30 thn dok kl sekali banjir lah plaks ni semua angkara smart tunnel yg baru nak beroperasi!

sabar je lah, then me xingat sem berapa masa tu ubaid kene infection paru2, ubaid kene masuk ward qani xdpt balik kl sbb tgh sebuk, me masa tu again final exam, sambil dok dlm ward me baca buku, xleh nak concertrate sbb ubd asyik nagis :'( me pon nagis sama tgk ubaid sambil baca notes, alhamdullilah mak ada di sisi me n kakak ipar me pon sama, masa ubaid tido me baru leh baca buku. tgk ubaid kene ambik gas, kene masuk air n kene cucuk sungguh menyedihkan me, me insaf tgk ubaid, masa gie exam jalan jam jalan upm tutup dah lah me lambat sampai2 exam hall org tgh exam dah me kelam kabut lari masuk hall, saba je lah otak me alhamdullilah leh focus, alhamdullilah lulus again n u know wat i got 3 pointer for tat sem hehe alhamdullilah agaknya berkat semua doakan me,

dan masa last sem sem 10 ubaid jatuh tersembam n me kene tido kat kohilal sbb woried dia punya benjol xok, so masa kat ward me tido jaga ubaid n me baca buku di ward again! tu lah dia cerita susah payah masa belajar, tu xtermasuk cerita masa 1st time nak implement ISO kat opis, steresssss, tp masa tu dah ah nak final exam kene iso plak sbr je ah, tu xtermasuk masa me nak honeymoon pon ada final exam, hurm susah nak belajar sambil bekerja, dan berfamiliy ni... me menasihat kan mereka2 yg tgh study kuat kan semangat jika anda ada family ni, dan kalo boleh jgn lah drob once u dah enter study world keep on going! dont stop! bila dah abis study u sure feel weired sbb dah xda apa nak buat lah plak, la me leh buat keje2 yg me teringin nak buat masa study dulu hehehe k ah nanti me sambung lagi cerita

apa2 pon xsenang sambung belaja....... dan terima kasih kepada semua yg membantu saya utk mencapaikan cita2 saya ini, hanya allah yg boleh membalas nya ameen!

This is me lyrics ( this song hehe really make me feel hapie n calm :P)

I've always been the kind of girl that hid my faceSo afraid to tell the world what I've got to sayBut I have this dream right inside of meI'm gonna let it show, it's timeTo let you knowTo let you know
[Chorus]This is real, this is meI'm exactly where I'm suppost to be, nowGonna let the light shine on meNow I've found who I amThere's no way to hold it inNo more hiding who I want to beThis is me
Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark? To dream about a life where you're the shining starEven though it seems like it's too far awayI have to believe in myself, it's the only way
[Chorus]
[Joe Jonas]You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singin'I need to find you, I gotta find youYou're the missin' piece I need, the song inside of meI need to find you, I gotta find you
[Both][Chorus]
[Joe Jonas]You're the missin' piece I need, the song inside of meYou're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singin'
[Both]Now I've found, who I amThere's no way to hold it inNo more hiding who I want to beThis is me